I believe that people who have really loved anybody will fall in love over and over again. They’re the people who can have their hearts broken and find that though anything, their hearts are resilient. It seems that, lately, heartbreak has been going around the internet.
Beautiful, vivacious, passionate women have been finding themselves let down and devastated. This weekend, one of my heartbroken friends wrote that her heart “couldn’t take anymore rejection”. I say it can. It can and it will. She’s a lover, I have no doubt she’ll love again; none. I believe in love.
I am a person who is prone to falling in love and when I fall it is generally hard and fast. Chalk it up to my highly trained intuition, but I meet people and know I want them around forever. My best friend and I have been best friends LITERALLY since the first day of seventh grade. One day; done.
I have never been good at walls and barriers, once you’re in you’re in; I am an all in kind of a girl. I am sure sometimes this propensity to trust and love has bitten me in the butt, but I know no other way to do it.
It’s not that shocking that I have fallen in love with Mr. A as quickly as I have.
It should also not a surprise that there are some people who have raised their eyebrows at how quickly I’ve jumped in.
I get it. If the roles were reversed, I would be weary too. I would caution them to go slowly…. I get it.
But I have to trust myself. I can’t let someone else’s fear scare me into not trusting my heart on this one.
The honest truth is that there is something different here with Mr. A. Sure, there is a chance it could end poorly in a few months, and the haters can practice their “I told you so’s” for that moment.
But what if they’re wrong?
What if I really have met the person I am going to spend the rest of my life with? This person who makes me feel instantly at ease, immeasurably cherished, and breathtakingly beautiful. What if he is the man I am gong to marry? I am going to go out on a limb and say that I believe that more than I believe this is going to end badly. For the time being I think I will be enjoying my time on the “this is it” side of the fence practicing my own “I told you so” song. I told you so, I told you so, I told you so. It will feel good to say someday.
“Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it’s cracked up to be. That’s why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more.” Erica Jong